I thought it was a disagreement, and maybe a misunderstanding. I thought I would be able to talk to Cedar the next morning and maybe just maybe forgive my best friend. I thought everything was going to be much simpler. Oh how I couldn’t have been more wrong.
“You can’t! You just can’t!”
“I have to.”
“No you don’t! I was wrong! I’m sorry! Please don’t leave me! Please!”
“It’s time for me to move on Sunny. I don’t deserve to be here and I know that. I’m so sorry, but I have to do this.”
“Please?! I’m not angry anymore!”
Just like that… he was gone.
I felt my world crumble. A feeling that only grew when I got to school the next day to find one seat in the far left corner vacant. I was alone and now there was no one for me to turn to.
But life goes on and regardless of my sadness, I had a household to help run. My sister was sprouting up quicker than I remembered growing myself, and she definitely got into way more trouble than I ever did.
I started jogging every night. It helped to ease the empty feeling. Until I would cross the park next to the school. I tried to avoid it most nights, but every once in a while curiosity would get the better of me and I would find myself drawn to its sacred grounds.
“Pretty lady? Why are you crying?”
I didn’t even have to look, I knew it was, i sniffled and wiped my face. “Because I hurt someone. Someone I really cared about. I am pretty sure he hates me now.”
“Oh I bet he doesn’t. I bet he misses you… more than anything.”
Without hesitation, I launched myself into his arms. “Oh Cedar! I am so sorry! Please forgive me. I made a terrible mistake!”
“Hey… it’s alright beautiful.”
*Sob sob sob*
“There is a way to make it up to me.”
*sniff* “Ya? What’s that?”